Love is most brittle part of my life. Whenever i have someone around me , i feel happy but this happiness has a time limit which is too short and our relationship is no longer works. This status of my life gives me eyes full of tears and to my heart a irreversible pain. I search for the cure all around and find nothing. My dreams are no longer belongs to joy and my nights are sleepless and restless. Whenever i close my eyes i find myself in the ocean of sorrow. My stability is decreasing day by day. My mind is thinking about something so faster than ever. My consumption to survive atleast is reduces to such an extent that my organs starts feeding each other. I got bigger black circles under my eyes. I am all alone in the world of desires with no desire remain within me alive more. I even don't know who is the one or many to put me here. Is this my like blood or alike blood. Thinking about the one i arrived at an uncertain conclusion , may be both like and alike are the reason for my today somehow. Likes are most cocentrated while alike also posses some influence. I lebelled them the biggest enemies of my life. I become more abusive day by day. I start living alone with no light around and rivising each and every moment of my life ruined by them.Time is passing , first time in my life i come to know the value of a second. How much longer a second is and how much shorter a day is. Life is too difficult to go through when you stick your eyes to a clock. You live your life on time basis, you divide it and enlarge that segment which produces more money to you.Thinking about the same i deduce a result that the relation comes with a price tag. One can easily alter the relationship status with the use of money. People here feel loved when they have gifts or money from someone. They want a tight relationship with the people with value , not with the people of value. Even a child in the world pass a smile after having candy. while thinking about all these things my brain feels hard pulls and pushes which are more cocentrated in foremost part of my head. These all activities of mine take me to lay down on the bare floor in the centre of my room. Seeing roof i attach my mind to a slowly rotating ceiling fan in my room. I attach my relations with the blades of ceiling fan and study relative motion between them with respect to me. closing eyes and clamly i review each happening of my life and starts making an account for what i lost and what i gain. I put all my lifes burden to my like blood but i found their deep love associated with all the tasks they given to me. Its better to say that they see their past, present and future in me. Their real value is me. Me myself is their real worth. I am not a meaningless kid , i am the one who is face of all their meanings. After concluding all these thoughts i reach at a serious note that then why i have these enemy thoughts in my mind for them. Having all the results it takes me a narrow gap to answer this question. The answer is lack of presentation. My like blood thinks i am the part of them so they feel no need to show their feelings for me. May be they are right at thier place but from my point of view if you love someone than please show your love , it worths to both of you. It gives clarity to the relations and fix the boundries of thoughts towards a certain direction and reduces the bad happenings in life. At last hear my cry please love to me ...please love to me.
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